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Accountability.

Journal Entry: Fri Oct 28, 2016, 8:27 PM


(Edited 11-23-2016 for latest updates.)

Just a list of things I need to do, in order to hold myself a wee bit accountable, since I seem to be going WAY off track lately.  I have a lot of things in process, but can't seem to bring myself to finish any of it.  Maybe seeing this all the time at the top of my page will give me the kick in the ass that I need.
  • Finish the von Rothenburg coat of arms that I started A BLOODY YEAR AGO. - DONE!
  • Finish up Part Three of Last Rites in the Old World. - DONE!
  • Work on some artwork for an RP that I'm involved in with HobbyWriter and TheEvilColonel.
  • Finish writing up the background and maybe even create a Wikipedia info box for my fictional nation of Dosteovania.
  • Finish up character development over on Charahub.
  • Map of Dosteovania.
  • Artwork to go along with the Dosteovanian National Anthem.

Yeah, not TOO bad.  I guess.



  • Listening to: The fan next to me
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: My Monitor
  • Playing: Gems of War
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  • Drinking: Water

I Don't Want This Life Anymore.

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 9, 2016, 7:34 PM
The pain is almost too much to fucking bear.  I feel as though I'm losing my mind.  There's an ache deep in my chest, and no matter what I do, it just won't go away.  I am so lost and broken right now.  Drifting on a sea with no hope of rescue.  I hurt so damned badly right now.........I don't know what to do or which way to turn.

Please.  Make the pain stop.  Make everything right again.

  • Listening to: The fan behind me
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: My Monitor
  • Playing: Gems of War
  • Eating: Dunkin' Donuts Munchkins
  • Drinking: Diet Mtn Dew

Time Is Not On My Side.

Journal Entry: Thu Sep 15, 2016, 4:40 PM


Sorry I've been so quiet around here lately.  After everything that's gone on, I thought it was high time to curtail my deviantART activity and take a bit of a break.  I'm sorry I haven't responded to everyone's comments and whatnot...I've just been VERY overwhelmed lately, and there's been a lot going on in my life. Please forgive me...I've read everything, I just honestly haven't had the time to respond.

Things are evening out a bit, in fact, I'll be getting a bit of a break from my Grandmother, as my amazing boyfriend Rommel101 will be here for a visit, and my family has decided to band together to give he and I some peace and quiet...for three days, she'll be staying with my Mom and Dad, and then for two days, she'll be with my Aunt and Uncle.  Rommel101 and I are very excited to have the house all to ourselves for that time...not having to worry about taking care of Nanny whilst he's here is an absolute Godsend!

I am extremely nervous and incredibly excited.  This is honestly the first time that someone has made an effort for ME...usually, I'm the one that has to do all the work.  But my man is amazing...so caring and loving, and this is just another way for him to prove to me just how much he loves me.  Yes, it's a long-distance relationship.  Yes, it's difficult as hell, because he's also in the Navy.

Yes, it most certainly is...110%...WORTH IT.  This is, quite honestly, the BEST relationship I have EVER been in.

Ok, enough mush for one day.  *clears throat*

Am I working on any art?  Kind of.  I'm working on a ref sheet for a character species that I collect, but I don't want to mention it, because I haven't asked the species' creator if it's ok.  Plus, me asking ahead of me getting it finished would rope me into actually having to finish it, and we all know how THAT kinda stuff goes.

I really need to start drawing again.  My pencils and sketchbook sit unused in my backpack, as does my graphics tablet.  I've been writing more than anything, and even THAT is starting to slow down some.  My creative inspiration is withering away again, and it's rather troublesome.

But hey.  I filled in the form for student financial aid.  Let's see if I can get back into university to finish up my Bachelor's Degree in History.

We'll see what happens.

  • Listening to: The fan behind me
  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: My Monitor
  • Playing: Company of Heroes
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  • Drinking: Orange Cream Clear American

Stupid Titles.

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 30, 2016, 6:33 PM


You know what I hate?

When people say, "Let it go," and then they're the ones that just can't seem to LET IT FUCKING GO.

CatzK3 - Whether you see this or not, quite honestly, I don't give a shit.  (I'm sure someone will be kind enough to point you in the direction of this post...) For once in my bloody life, I'm feeling the need to step up and defend myself.  I'm getting sick and tired of people coming to me saying how you're talking shit about things that happened MONTHS AGO.  You keep spouting off on how it's done and over with, and yet, you keep posting journal entry after journal entry, harping on the whole bloody situation.

You know what?  It's been done and over with for MONTHS.  But yet, you conveniently want to CONTINUE to place the blame on me for all of YOUR shortcomings, which are many and varied.  I have NEVER been one to call someone out, but I am SICK. AND. TIRED. of your childish and petty bullshit.  Grow up.  And you wonder why your friends are deserting you left and right.  I crack a joke on someone's thread and you instantly come in and attack me.  And then you call the poor guy a douche for no reason.  Hmmm.

You're nothing more than a child in a man's body, playing at being an artist.  Guess what?  You want to bust on my art?  Let me tell you a little bit about me...

I have had my art PUBLISHED.  It's won awards.  It's been in Sports Illustrated.  It's been used by the NFL, it's been posted in the Baltimore Sun.  It's been used by major radio stations in the Baltimore area.  MY ART HAS BEEN IN THE BALTIMORE RAVENS MUSEUM.  And that's just the little things...

I was the head graphic designer for a printing company for over ten years.  I was also the manager.  I have been creating art since before you were a twinkle in your mother's eye, mister.  I don't have to explain myself to you on how I do things or why I do things now the way I do.

As for running a group?  Please, child.  Let me tell you something.  I've run more websites and groups WAY larger than your little ArtWar project and I've NEVER had ANY drama of the sort.  But then again, back in those days, people on the internet had a code of honor....unlike now, where it seems to be nothing more than a bunch of petty name-calling pussies and whiny kids.

Contrary to your popular belief, I am NOT going behind your back and badmouthing your project, save for that one little joke on that one thread that you just decided to comment on.  Think what you will. 

Or rather, let me just say this...grow up, put on your big girl panties, and MOVE THE FUCK ON.  You're obsessed.  Quit foisting the blame for your own shortcomings on everyone else, because ultimately?

They're all YOUR problems.  No one else's.

Oh, and by the way, it just goes to show you how well you can handle things....blocking me because you can't deal with me.  Way to go.  That just shows the kind of person you are.  You can't handle any one else's opinion but your own....unless it agrees with yours.

  • Listening to: The fan behind me
  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: My Monitor
  • Playing: Company of Heroes
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Orange Cream Clear American

Shush.

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 9, 2016, 6:01 PM



Yeah, I done did it.  Got myself a FurVilla account.  Even dragged the BF into it, too.

Feel free to send me a friend request.

www.furvilla.com/profile/53202

Now I need to scrape up some money so I can upload a paintie for myself.

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  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: My netbook monitor
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  • Drinking: Water

It Is What It Is.

Fri Jul 8, 2016, 4:51 PM
"It is what it is."

My Mom and I both say that quite often...when you're facing a situation that you have no control over, well, it is what it is.  She started saying that all the time years ago when she was diagnosed with endometrial cancer.  I've been saying it for as long as I can remember.

"It is what it is."

Something you can't control.  You just have to strap yourself in tight for the ride and hang on for dear life.  And I'm not ashamed to admit that that's what I've been doing lately...hanging on for dear life.  Murphy's Law, you know...anything that CAN go wrong, damned well WILL in my life.

"It is what it is."

Fourth of July - Nanny fell and broke her wrist.   I have yet to be able to stop hearing the sound of her two arm bones breaking when I close my eyes.  That sickening SNAP when she hit the floor.  Ugh.  And me, helpless because I couldn't move fast enough to catch her, thanks to my own health issues.  I could barely get her up off the floor, and I ended up wrenching my shoulder when I did.

"It is what it is."

I need to have more injections in my spine.  And if THAT doesn't work, since this would be round two, they're talking about nerve medication.  I just don't know what to do anymore.  I can barely walk, and I can't stand for more than five minutes at a time.  The only place I'm ever really comfortable is in my recliner, and even that is starting to change.  I'm so tired of being in pain and unable to function at a decent level.

"It is what it is."

Everything in my life has fallen by the wayside.  My graphic novel has been shelved indefinitely.  My creativity is just about non-existent.  I've been working on my OC Anna-Katrin's and TheEvilColonel's Commander Valentine's canon backstory, and I've hit a brick wall.  Even my devil ghosties are buried somewhere in my closet with the skeletons...hell, I've even curtailed my dA usage.  My inbox is not pretty.

"It is what it is."

If it wasn't for the unconditional love of one man, my incredible boyfriend Rommel101, I honestly think I would be locked away in an asylum.  It is he that keeps me sane, he that keeps me grounded.  He has this amazing power...only he can keep me from spiraling into the darkness that has been threatening to consume me.  He is truly my better half, and I love him with all that is in me.  I am both very thankful and extremely blessed to have him in my life.

"It is what it is."

Unfortunately, he is also going through some very heavy stuff.  So right now, he and I are both struggling.  He carries a heavy weight on his shoulders, and I hate that I've been adding to that burden.  I am not ashamed to admit that life is very hard right now, and things look bleak indeed, although we are praying for a good outcome in a couple different matters.

"It is what it is."

Your good thoughts, prayers, whatever...all would be greatly appreciated right now.  Anything you can spare would be welcome.

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Yeah, I Done Stole It.

Tue Jul 5, 2016, 1:28 PM
Ganked from :iconhobbywriter:  Why?  Because I can!

General info:
Gender: Female
Sexuality: Bisexual
Height: Somewhere around 5'10", although I'm losing height as my spine compresses.
Eye-color: Grey
Hair-color: Red.  And no, the cuffs and collars DON'T match. 
Relationship status: Happily involved with Rommel101.
Favorite color: Red, pink, orange, and purple.
Favorite song(s): 'Ghost Division', 'Rise of Evil' (Sabaton), anything by Godsmack, 'Divenire', 'Primevera' (Ludovico Einaudi).
Favorite band/artist: Ludovico Einaudi, Mozart, Sabaton, Godsmack, Chevelle, etc., etc., etc.
Favorite youtuber: Boris!
Favorite food: Prime rib, medium rare.
Favorite family member: Mom and Dad.
Favorite bird: Ravens.
Favorite animal: Cats and dogs.
Favorite celebrities: Harrison Ford, Thomas Kretschmann.
Favorite time: Any time spent with Rommel101 is my favorite time.
Favorite Holiday: Halloween
Favorite season: Winter
Favorite fruit: Bananananananananas
Favorite flower: Fire and ice roses.
Favorite emoji: XD
Favorite app: Hungry Babies Mania
Favorite Hobby: Gaming, writing, reading, working on art.
Favorite country: Germany
Favorite weather: Dark and stormy.
Favorite element: Fire
Favorite language: German
Name of your crush: Rommel101
Name of your pets: Does my Grandmother count?
Name of your best friends: Lisa, just like me!
introvert/Extrovert: Introvert
Nerdy or sassy: I'm not a nerd, I'm a geek.  Get it right!
Tall or short: Tall-ish.
Looks or personality: Personaility
Homesick or traveler: Homesick
Musician or artist: Damn.  Both.
Woods or city: Drop me in a cabin in the middle of the woods with no neighbors for MILES around, and I'll be happier than a pig in shit!
TV or youtube: TV
Phone or computer: Computer.
Family or money: Family, and then we win the lottery!
Books or movies: Books
Food or sleep: I love both way too much to choose!

If you wanna, go forth and do it.  I ain't taggin' anyone this time 'round.  For which I'm sure many will be thankful for.....

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  • Listening to: The air conditioner next to me
  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: My netbook monitor
  • Playing: Gems of War
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  • Drinking: Nestea Diet Citrus Green Tea

Why Do I Even Bother?

Journal Entry: Tue Jun 7, 2016, 10:57 AM
Part of me wants to take a break from dA.  I am emotionally and mentally wrecked over what's happened these past two weeks.  dA has been both a blessing and a curse to me...I have met some AMAZING people here, including my incredible boyfriend, Rommel101, without whom I would be COMPLETELY lost.

So what's happened, you curious onlookers ask?  Well, it goes a little something like this, and this is honestly the short version...I was stabbed in the back and betrayed by someone that I trusted, someone that I considered a close friend.  That, in turn, started a whole mess of shit, which I will not get into here, but as things went on I was mocked, belittled, called numerous names, etc., etc., and so on and so forth.

To cap off what was an incredibly horrific day, I then managed to get into a HUGE fight with my Mom.  That was just the icing on an already bitter and burnt cake.

AND THEN TODAY...I come to find out that yet another person I considered a friend...someone that I cared about...decided to toss me by the wayside for the simple fact that I HAVE A BOYFRIEND.

I guess my character judgment is WAY THE FUCK OFF.  I think I need to go back to being a complete loner again.  I am so fucking tired of being hurt.  I need to close myself off again.

I am not medicated enough to deal with this life.

As an aside, I do want to thank a few certain people...
  • My boyfriend, of course, for being there for me when I needed him the most.  I love you to the moon and back, baby.
  • TheEvilColonel - My partner-in-crime.  You have helped me more than I could ever express, and I thank you for that.
  • DerEisenbrand - Thank you for cheering me up on that fateful day.  You kept me from completely losing my mind.  Your support means the world to me.
  • TheWarRises - My #1 Canadian Asshole.  You're always there, and I DO appreciate that...and you.


  • Listening to: The birds outside
  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: My netbook monitor
  • Playing: Gems of War
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Water

Memorial Day.

Journal Entry: Mon May 30, 2016, 10:41 AM


It's Memorial Day here in the States.  A time when we should all take a minute to stop and remember those who gave their lives for the freedom that we think we deserve. Today, I honor both of my grandfathers who served during World War II - my paternal Grandfather, who served in the Home Guard in Great Britain (mu Dad was born in Portsmouth, UK...mere months before the Battle of Britain began) and my maternal Grandfather, who I BELIEVE served in the Pacific Theatre of Operations.  His service record is a giant black hole, and I have been hard-pressed to find ANY information about his time in the Army.  He NEVER talked about his time in the service, so no one knows just what he went through.  And yes, I have contacted the government in the hopes of getting his records.  Twice, I have received no response to my inquiries.

I would also like to take a moment to thank those that are serving NOW, including my amazing boyfriend, Rommel101.  He is currently serving out his enlistment in the Navy, and I am so very proud of him for it, among other things.  Thank you, sweetheart.  I love you so much!

And thank you to all the servicemen and women out there that are doing their duty for our country, so that we may enjoy our freedom.

:heart:

  • Listening to: The air conditioner next to me
  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: My netbook monitor
  • Playing: Gems of War
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Water

Sockat Raffle.

Journal Entry: Thu May 5, 2016, 2:28 PM



Sockats are my new favorite adoptables!  So of course, I have to enter this giveaway, hosted by the species' creator, Zagittorch and Sockat-Drawer.

I really want another one!

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I Can't Think of a Title.

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 30, 2016, 3:39 PM
I've never been one to hide things about myself, mainly for the simple reason that nine times out of ten, when you do shit like that, it comes back to bite you in the ass.  So I've always been very upfront with people that I let into my inner circle that I suffer from depression, among many other diagnoses.  Depression, social anxiety disorder, agoraphobia, PTSD, ADD, and OCD are just a few of them.  It's all part of who I am.  A permanent part of my psyche and my personality.  I used to be well-medicated enough to deal with life, but not anymore, as my doctor is a complete dick and I'm in the midst of trying to find a new one.  And yes, I am, in fact, seeing a therapist.

But that's neither here nor there.

Today has been exceptionally bad.  I can usually slap on a brave face, which is what I do 95% of the time.  But sometimes the mask drops to the floor and shatters, as it did today.  One thing after another piles on top of me to create a boiling mess, which leaves me writhing and broken on the floor.  My poor BF, Rommel101, has had to deal with the worst of it since last night, but on the flip side, I am SO VERY THANKFUL AND BLESSED to have him by my side.  It's hard, because he's half a world away right now, serving out his enlistment in the Navy, but I do know that he's there for me when I need him.

And then there's my friends here on dA.  I have met some of the most awesome people on here, and your friendships mean the absolute world to me.  Y'all know who you are, and I love each and every one of you.

I guess what I'm trying to say is....awwww, hell, quite honestly, I'm not sure exactly WHAT I'm trying to say.  Maybe I just needed to vent, I dunno.

Just....be patient with me, I suppose.  I'll be back to my normal angry self in no time.

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  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: My netbook monitor
  • Playing: Gems of War
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing

An Odd Sort of Question.

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 28, 2016, 7:18 PM



As the title says, I have an odd sort of question for all of my watchers out there.

How many of y'all have a FEMALE OC?  Preferably human.

Like I said, an ODD one, eh?

This is honestly for future reference for something a little farther off into the future, but I'm just curious right now.  I know a lot of you have MALE OCs...I can't think of a single one of you that has a female!  (Except for RMS-OLYMPIC, but that doesn't help me any!!  :XD:)

:)

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  • Watching: The Capitals/Shittsburgh hockey game
  • Playing: Gems of War
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  • Drinking: Water

Copic Marker Giveaway.

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 28, 2016, 12:57 PM


copicmarkertutorials.com/givea…

I would so kill to get this set of markers.

*drools*

  • Listening to: The birds outside
  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: My netbook monitor
  • Playing: Gems of War
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Diet Mtn Dew

History Hypotheticals: Nightmare Edition.

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 21, 2016, 5:01 PM


Tagged by my history partner-in-crime, PrinceCheezburger.  This one was fun!

1. Pick five historical figures to be in your historical dream family. Describe their relations to you.
Generalfeldmarschall Erwin Rommel - husband.  Joachim Peiper - secret lover.  Michael Wittmann, Kurt Meyer - brothers.  Nina von Stauffenberg - sister.
2. Have you ever had a crush on a historical figure? If so, who was it?
A few, actually.  See question #1.
3. Historical weapon of choice?
Luger P08.
4. Favorite author(s)? Favorite literary movement?
Too many to name.  I read a lot of different stuff.  As for the literary movement....no clue.  Never really thought about it.
5. Which historical eras are you interested in?
World War II, Tudor England, the American Civil War, and the Revolutionary War.
6. Quick! Punch a historical figure in the face!
Neville Chamberlain. Just 'cause...those eyebrows.  Damn it, man...trim that shit!
7. If you could meet three world leaders (alive or dead), who would they be? What would you do with them?
King Henry VIII, Adolf Hitler, and George Washington.  It would be the dinner party from hell.
8. Is the current era really better than the past? Why or why not?
No.  Political correctness has ruined this world.
9. Worst alternate history timeline you can think of?
The Cold War becomes hot when Stalin decides to press the big red button...
10. Would you rather time!  Would you rather be forced to give William H. Taft a piggyback ride for one whole day or have Andrew Jackson be your babysitter for a week?
Andrew Jackson would make a most interesting babysitter, that's for sure!

The latest round of victims: lockheed5b, TheEvilColonel (hey, it's a history one, just do it!  :XD:), SanguineWinds, thesketchydude13, Mr-Freddman, LevLADS, and RMS-OLYMPIC.

  • Listening to: The birds outside
  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: My netbook monitor
  • Playing: Gems of War
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Water

One of Those Days...

Journal Entry: Sun Apr 17, 2016, 7:19 AM


Today is one of those kind of days....

The kind of day where my depression slaps me so hard upside the head that I'm reduced to a quivering mass of flesh.  When the only thing I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry.  When facing the world just seems like it's too much to deal with, but hey!  We have RESPONSIBILITIES!  We have to DO THINGS!  There are THINGS that need our ATTENTION!

I just want to hide away from the world today.  I am not medicated enough to deal with this shit sometimes.  My head feels as though it's about to explode.

Hi, my name is Lisa, I suffer from depression, and today is not a good day.  AT ALL.

  • Listening to: The fan behind me
  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Gems of War
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing

*Insert Stupid Meme Title Here*

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 6, 2016, 3:26 PM


Tagged by DerKleineDoktor.  I will SO get you back for this one of these days....when I'm a little less exhausted....

1) Eye colour:
Grey.  Sometimes bright blue.
2) Favourite Meme:
I don't have a favorite.
3) Favourite sound, not music, sound:
The sound of my BF's voice.  It is amazingly sexy, and it has the power to calm me down and bring me back to earth like nothing else can.
4) Favourite type of chocolate:
Milk chocolate.  Specifically, Lindt milk chocolate truffles in the red bag.  (You ARE taking notes, aren't you, Rommel101?  Heh.)
5) Someone you look like:
Mein Vater.
6) Best part of waking up:
Rolling over and curling back up with my sweetheart.  Oh.  Wait a minute. He's on the other side of the country.  DAMMIT.  THERE IS NO GOOD PART OF WAKING UP!!!!
7) Favourite Type Of Film:
I'm big into historical flicks.  I love war movies.
8) Your favourite finger:
The middle finger. Go finger....I mean, figure...
9) Favourite currency:
Whatever anyone wants to stuff into my bra.
10) What are you most likely to go to jail for?
Ummm....next question, please....
11) What are you currently writing?
A book based on the life of Generalfeldmarschall Erwin Rommel.  A graphic novel.  Stuff for the GunGear Artwar.
12) Favourite Era:
World War II era.
13) A pet peeve of yours?
HA.  My list is rather expansive.  I'll just go with the old standby...STUPID PEOPLE.
14) You are the master of your own...
Uhhhh....not a bloody thing.  I'd be in big trouble with the BF if I were!  :XD:
15) Trapped in a shark cloud... :sharkwave: (I know it's supposed to be a wave but I'm tired and it looks like a cloud from here), what do you do?
I'd damned well better be trapped with an automatic weapon, because I will shoot my way out of the cloud and give a triumphant howl once I hit the ground, covered with blood and shark guts!!
16) Are you disappointed this meme isn't longer/shorter?
Yes.

Victims: Rommel101, thesketchydude13, RMS-OLYMPIC, PrinceCheezburger, SanguineWinds, lockheed5b, and anyone else that feels like stealing it!

  • Listening to: Nanny's loud-ass TV
  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: My netbook monitor
  • Playing: Gems of War
  • Eating: Chicken nuggets
  • Drinking: Water

The Gamer Geek In Me Loves This!

Journal Entry: Tue Mar 22, 2016, 9:00 AM


Gamer Tag....tagged by :iconcatzk3:.  Stinker.  ;)

Rules:
1. Answer the questions
2. Tag at least 5 other people
3. You are allowed to make up two bonus questions for the other people to answer, along with the main ones.

1) Favorite video game and why?
OMG.  Ummm....I don't have just one favorite.  Zombie Army Trilogy.  Guild Wars 2.  War Thunder.  Those are my top three favorites.  As for why?  Killing shit and blowing things up are a damned good way to relieve stress, let me tell you!

2) First game you remember playing?
Lemonade Stand on my old Atari TRS-80.  Yes, I'm old.  Shut the fuck up.

3) Five things you hate about video games?
-Pay to win.
-Super-high prices.
-DLC
-Awful or no story line.
-Horrible graphics.

4) Five things you love about video games?
- Stress Relief  <---Did I not JUST say that?!
- I can blow shit up!  <---Ditto!
- A good story line makes me jizz my pants.  Oh, wait a minute.....
- The hot-ass characters I get to create.  OMG, my Sith is sexy.  And my Charr (GW2)?  She'll kiss you and then claw your face off.
-I GET TO KILL SHIT.  AND BLOW SHIT UP.  AND THEN KILL MORE SHIT.

5) Gamer's worst nightmare (to you)?
Running out of hard drive space because I play WAYYYYYYYY too many games!

6) Most boring game you've ever played?
I honestly can't think of one right off the top of my head.  Like Catz said, some of the point-n-click ones seriously suck, but.....nyeh.

7) Favorite console/platform (Playstation, Xbox, PC, etc.)?
When I had consoles, it was the Wii, followed by the Playstation.  Now, it's all PC, although I think I'd like to have an Xbox someday.

8) What annoys you in games (stuff you can't destroy, doors that get stuck, etc.)?
Overpowered tanks.  (I'm looking at you, War Thunder!)  Insanely high research needed for something.  (Oh, wait....)  NPCs that DON'T FUCKING DIE.

9) Favorite video game character?
Hermann Wolff, Zombie Army Trilogy.  I lurves him.

10) Video game character you hate the most?
Not so much a character, but....ever played War Thunder?  "That shell didn't seem to do any damage!!"  "The commander's been knocked out!"  "It seems we missed, sir!"  Oh, that voice.....let me throw your sorry ass out of my tank and see how YOU like things on the outside when there's a T-34 bearing down on YOUR ass.  How about a shell right up your ass, you little bitch?!


And I'm stealing Catz's bonus questions, because they're pretty damned good:
11) What kind of character do you most often play (tank, stealth, magic caster, etc.)?
Thief.  Assassin.  Anything bad.  'Cause I'm just cool like that.

12) Video games made into movies/movies made into video games, yes or no?
No.  No, no, no.  And.......NO.

Tagging Victims, ie., my gamer pals:
:icontheevilcolonel: - Double-tag so you HAVE to do it now!
:iconrommel101:, :iconalbanwolf:, :iconbar27262:, :iconherr-totenkopf:, :iconmartinbg:, AND.....
:iconshade5069: - As if I'd let you slide on this one, mister!

  • Listening to: Nanny's loud-ass TV
  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: My netbook monitor
  • Playing: Gems of War
  • Eating: Chicken patty sliders
  • Drinking: Diet caffeine free Pepsi - UGH

The Me Meme.

Journal Entry: Sun Mar 13, 2016, 2:00 PM


This is what happens when I can't access my network and work on my art.  You get an insanely long meme of shit you really didn't care to know about me in the first place.  Happily stolen from Oakiel.

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
A very sharp knife.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Green paint.  I really need to do something about that....my walls are way too bare.

3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
All of the above, unfortunately.  Thankfully, not all at the same time.

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Post-rock. Soundtracks.  Instrumental.  Classical.  Sabaton.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
I believe it was like 6:40 in the evening, or somewhere thereabouts.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Such a loaded question for me.  Money would solve A LOT of my problems.  But, well....FREEDOM would be a lovely thing, as well.  Those that are closest to me know what I'm talking about.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
My cats.  They were my babies.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
My computers.  They help to keep me somewhat sane.

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
5'10".

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Sometimes.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Depends on where I am.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Rommel101.  But it was a GOOD cry.

13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
The US becoming involved in yet another war they shouldn't be.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOUR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
I like light eyes.  Hair, I could really care less about.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
HA!  I'm just the sort of woman that would actually do something like that....but, I don't know.  It would be one of those kind of "when the right opportunity presents itself" things.

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
COFFEE.

17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Pepperoni!

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Prime rib, medium rare, garlic mashed potatoes, and steamed broccoli with cheese sauce.

19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
Orange

20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
No.  Ick.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
Shit.  I have no clue.  Aren't ALL gifts meaningful in some way?!

22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
Not anymore!  :)

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
Yes, but not in the traditional sense.

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Anything that fits.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
33!

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Redheads, dammit!

32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
"The winner is he who has the last round in his barrel." -Generalfeldmarschall Erwin Rommel

33. FAVORITE PLACE?
On the mountain top.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Yes.  Went to the UK to visit my family many years ago.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Chocolate.  Kittens.  Tiger tanks.

36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Yes.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Yes.

39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
Definitely.

40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Talking to a friend on Steam.

41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Yes.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
My eyes.

43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
Yes.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
A trip to Washington State.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
..............

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
No, but the first letter in my name comes from both my Grandmother and my Mom.

47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Treating me like shit.

48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
Hangin' with my bestie.

49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Whatever's on sale and smells good.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Sometimes.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Black Forest ham.

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
No!  I am perfect! :XD:

53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
Fuck yeah.  Don't say I didn't warn you...

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I highly doubt it.  Some days, even *I* hate myself...

55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
Ehhhhhh.  If you're not in a relationship with anyone, sure.

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
No.  It's what's on the inside that counts. Cliched, I know, but it's the bloody truth for me.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
Depends.  I kill zombies.  Blow up tanks. Throw things.  I've been known to put my fist through walls.

58. WOULD YOU RATHER GAIN 58 POUNDS OR LOSE 58 POUNDS.
LOSE.  OMG, seriously.  That would be like....so fucking awesome.

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
A stuffed Winnie the Pooh bear.

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
16

62. WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
Barney needs to die.

63. Do you use sarcasm?
Does a bear shit in the woods and use a rabbit to wipe its ass?

64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Both.  I'm a fat chick.

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Kindness.  Respect.  Flexibility.  Compromise.

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
raspberryvixen, Vixxie, Vix, raz, RV, kitten.

67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER?
Invisibility.

68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
TURN: Washington's Spies.

69.WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
Ignore them.

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Chocolate peanut butter cup.

71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Yes.

72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
Yes.

73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
Star Wars: The Old Republic with a friend.

74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
Wherever the wind may take me.

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
In an ideal dA world...certainly!!

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Nanny's loud TV.

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Black Cherry sparkling water.

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Rommel101

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Smile.

80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
Game.  Read.  Work on my art.

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
My life.

82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?
Fall.

83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Lindt milk chocolate truffles.

84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
Yes.

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Red.

86. EYE COLOR?
Grey.

87. SHOE SIZE?
10.

88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
Taco Bell.

89. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
LOVE it.

90. WATCH TV TODAY?
Nope.

91. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
It used to be payday, but then I lost my job...

92. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
Used to play the clarinet.  I can also play the piano somewhat.

93. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
None of the above.

94. KISSES OR HUGS?
Kisses whilst being hugged!

95. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
A relationship.

96. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Blush.

97. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE?
In a freakin' heartbeat.

98. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
"Er ist weider da" (Look Who's Back) by Timur Vermes

99. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE:
Complicated as all hell, but.......amazing.

I lazily tag anyone that reads this and decides to do it.   :)

  • Listening to: Nanny's loud-ass TV
  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: My netbook monitor
  • Playing: Gems of War
  • Eating: Nothing, dammit!
  • Drinking: Nothing

That Dang OC Tag!

Journal Entry: Wed Mar 9, 2016, 11:13 PM


So!  General-Palladium tagged me to do the OC meme that's been going around.  Quite honestly, I'm surprised it's taken this long for someone to tag me with this, but then again, my OCs are pretty quiet...one of these days I'll remedy that, I swear!

Rules:
1. Post 8 facts about your character.
2. Tag 8 other characters.
3. Post their names along with their creators' avatars.

Oberst Anna-Katrin von Bödeker

1. She has a line of scar tissue on the back of her neck that runs from her hairline all the way down between her shoulder blades to the middle of her back.  The scar was obtained the third time that she was shot down a third over the Soviet Union. The scar bothers her continuously...most times she's able to ignore it, other times, she's constantly rubbing at her neck.
2. Her favorite animal is the fox, hence the name of her airplane, 
Die Füchsin, which means "The Vixen" in English.  It's also why her Luftwaffe squadron is called The Black Fox Squadron.
3.When she was a child, she dreamed of being a pilot.  When she turned 18, she became one of the youngest ace pilots in the Luftwaffe.
4. She was shot down three times in combat.  Twice over enemy territory.  Both times, she was somehow able to avoid being captured and made it back to the German lines.
5. She has a fiery temper.  She's a redhead, and her hair is a perfect match to her personality.
6. Generalleutnant Eckardt Reitter is her nemesis.  He's her superior officer, of a sorts, and loves to torment her by keeping her and her squadron away from the front lines to do piddly little bullshit missions, which she absolutely hates.  Unfortunately for her, she values honor above all else, so she won't get her husband, Generalfeldmarschall Klaus Erwin Hans Freiherr von Rothenburg, to intervene.
7. She's a bit of a loner.  She prefers the company of her husband and their dogs to the company of people, unless it's the boys in her squadron, or Adolf Galland, the squadron's co-leader.
8. She is a decorated ace pilot.  Knight's Cross to the Iron Cross with Oak Leaves for bravery in battle over the Eastern Front.

And I need to tag 8 other characters?  Crap.  

Commander Valentine and TheEvilColonel  (double tag!!  :XD:)
Trevor Drakenor and TrevorDrakenor 
Richard Eichinger and TinteUndBlut (don't hate me, please!!)
Warlord and EagleSpartan888 
Ashley Jett and LevLADS 
Sage and SanguineWinds 
Lachen and AdmiralDoenitz 
Zack Assegaf and Admiralkim 


  • Listening to: The ceiling fan
  • Reading: Er ist wieder da by Timur Vermes
  • Watching: Mom's monitor
  • Playing: Gems of War
  • Eating: Nothing, dammit!
  • Drinking: Nothing