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Ho Ho Ho.

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It's so hard to believe how much time has passed.  My first semester at the American Military Institute is in the books, and I've managed to pull a 3.085 GPA for the semester.  I've already started my second semester, and I'm actually looking forward to it, because now I'm really getting into the meat of my degree track (Military History).  My first class is Ancient Military History, and I'm already loving it.

Of course, all of the work that I've been having to do for my classes means that my art has fallen by the wayside.  Yes, it bothers me, and I really need to learn how to budget my time better.  I have all of these grand plans for some pieces of art, but no motivation to actually DO them.  I HAVE started on something, but whether or not I will actually finish it is a different story.

Rommel101 was here for eight glorious days in September/October.  Our time together was AMAZING, and I will treasure the memories of it until the next time he and I can be together.  We visited my parents for a few days, and the rest of our alone time was spent either relaxing in our recliners or snuggling in bed.  For those eight wonderful days, there was no stress, no worry....it was just US.  He and I, together.  In our own little world.

And it was glorious.

And now, it's hell time.  His deployment is looming on the not-so-distant future, and it's something that we're both dreading.  But once that is all over, he only has a few more months left in the Navy.

I have also adopted two rescue cats.  Marble is 1-2 years old, and Skittles (named by the boyfriend) is about six or seven months old.  They are both beautiful tortoiseshell girls, and I love them dearly.  Marble is very clingy - she follows me around the apartment and is ALWAYS all up in my business.  And I couldn't be happier.  They help to tame the loneliness that stems from Rommel101 being so far away, and they do it quite well.

The worst news I've had to deal with has been the judge's denial of my disability appeal...that happened back in September.  I'm appealing that decision, and if THAT appeal gets turned down, it's off to Federal Court.  My lawyer was VERY disappointed that we'd lost the appeal...she honestly thought that I had an excellent case.  But she's found some discrepancies in the judge's decision, one of the biggest being that he didn't pay attention to my most recent MRI, which shows more advanced degeneration than the first MRI.  *shrugs*  We'll see what happens.

Life goes on, eh?

Well, since only God knows when the next time I'll write something here or post some artwork, I hope everyone has an incredibly awesome holiday season...whichever holiday you celebrate!

:bademoticon: Mistletoe  Pusheen Nomnom Gingerbread plz  :bademoticon: Fox emoji - Christmas!  :bademoticon: 
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Um....Hi.

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So here it is, two weeks past my birthday, and I have yet to thank all of you for the wonderful birthday wishes.  Unfortunately, my life has been as insane as my first ex-husband, so I have been remiss in my duties.  I have not been around dA at all lately. So...

To everyone that wished me a Happy Birthday:

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU.  I LOVE YOU ALL.  :heart:


Sorry for my lack of manners in not responding.  Between school starting, my disability hearing, moving into a new apartment, and my latest majorly depressive episode, things in my life have been off the charts nuts.  If it weren't for my amazing boyfriend, Rommel101, I honestly think I would've gone out back and jumped in front of the freight train that runs behind my apartment complex.

My depression has been ridiculous lately.  I am struggling majorly with school.  I transferred to a new university - the American Military University - and even though I'm in a much better history program (military history! Yay!), I've lost a lot of credits and have to take a bunch of general education courses (political science, literature, etc.) that I DO. NOT. WANT.  And when I don't like something, my brain goes haywire. 

But then again, my brain's been haywire for quite some time, school notwithstanding.  My brain says, "Fuck you, assignment due dates!"  Yeah, so not good.  Thankfully, my shrink is trying to help me out with that.

I've been in my new place for less than a month, and there's still so much I have to do.  And I'm under the gun....if things go right (which they never seem to do anymore), Rommel101 will be here possibly next weekend.  We're waiting for his leave to get approved so that he can come out here.  And if he is.......let me just say that it looks like a home good store threw up in my apartment.  Yeah.  Lovely.

I do things when I can.  My back is getting worse, and I can't stand up for any length of time.  I have three bulging discs in my lower back that are wreaking havoc with my spine, and that's just for starters.  I have to do things in spurts...fifteen minutes of doing stuff, and then one hour stretched out in my recliner to try to ease the pain.  My right leg gets weak and my feet both go numb.  I feel like my hip is being pulled out of joint.

But despite all of the bad shit, there is some good, believe it or not.  I have an amazing family that has been extremely supportive throughout my ordeals.  My parents have been amazing...they have gone above and beyond anything I could have ever imagined.  And my friends...they are the best.  You all know who you are. 

And then there's Rommel101.  My life, my love, my whole world.  He has been the single most steadying influence in my life.  My biggest cheerleader.  My rock, my strength, my support.  I love my Wolf, so very much.

Eventually, there will be more art.  Maybe.  Someday...
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Look at this pretty baby!

[CLOSED] CS LumenFox FREE Raffle - ends June, 26th by Yoshimiko-Adopts

I've been squealing over this LumenFox since I first saw her.  She is stunning...I absolutely ADORE species with watermelon-themed designs, and this baby tops it!  And Yoshimiko-Adopts makes some of the most adorable adopts!
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Accountability.

5 min read


(Edited 11-23-2016 for latest updates.)

Just a list of things I need to do, in order to hold myself a wee bit accountable, since I seem to be going WAY off track lately.  I have a lot of things in process, but can't seem to bring myself to finish any of it.  Maybe seeing this all the time at the top of my page will give me the kick in the ass that I need.
  • Finish the von Rothenburg coat of arms that I started A BLOODY YEAR AGO. - DONE!
  • Finish up Part Three of Last Rites in the Old World. - DONE!
  • Work on some artwork for an RP that I'm involved in with HobbyWriter and TheEvilColonel.
  • Finish writing up the background and maybe even create a Wikipedia info box for my fictional nation of Dosteovania.
  • Finish up character development over on Charahub.
  • Map of Dosteovania.
  • Artwork to go along with the Dosteovanian National Anthem.

Yeah, not TOO bad.  I guess.



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The pain is almost too much to fucking bear.  I feel as though I'm losing my mind.  There's an ache deep in my chest, and no matter what I do, it just won't go away.  I am so lost and broken right now.  Drifting on a sea with no hope of rescue.  I hurt so damned badly right now.........I don't know what to do or which way to turn.

Please.  Make the pain stop.  Make everything right again.

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